Meditation on a Pandemic

I write this from New Jersey, USA, where we’ve been under a state of emergency since March 6th due to the covid-19 pandemic. I would have thought that being mostly stuck in the house would have given me more time to accomplish things: such as teaching myself the ukulele, composing music, or writing more articles for this blog. However, for reasons I won’t go into here, I spend most of my time taking care of my autistic son—being his tutor at home, making sure he is fed, happy, entertained, etc. And there are lots of times when I feel overwhelmed by his needs, the needs of my “family” both in person and through social media, the destruction of my sleeping cycle into 1-2hr naps, the time-consuming restrictions, and limitations on shopping that have me running to stand on line at 6:30 AM at the local supermarket so I can get my major supplies for the week, or serving as “technical support” to keep people’s computers and Internet running during this crisis. So, much of the time I feel exhausted just want to crash.

I’m telling you this here, not to complain, or make myself seem like a martyr.  Because, let’s get to the root of why I, and millions like me, do these things.  Why do doctors, nurses, social workers, policemen and all the “essential” workers who have the reality of the sick and dying of this disease shoved into their faces every day to the point of their own burnout and despair manage to get up the next day and do it again?   Survival and government aside, why do we do this day and day with no particular end date in sight?  The cynic would say “because you have to.”  But that’s not it. 

We do it out of love.  We get up every morning and face this grind because of love.  Because these lives that are intertwined with our own have meaning and worth to us.  Because we see ourselves reflected back through them.  When I see my son smile at me, it’s like the face of God looking at me. 

Catastrophe brings out the worst and the best of our human nature.  There are some who believe that we are just selfish animals, fighting for survival and the other be damned. These are the sort of people who believe that their “rights” are more important than others and their wants and “needs” are sacrosanct. They would place themselves at the top of humanity—and if others are made ill or die as a result, well so be it[1]. As I write this, there are people being killed over whether a store has the right to enforce the wearing of a face mask.  There are people screaming that restrictions should be lifted because they want to get their hair dyed, or they are missing their Botox shot—and if others are made ill because of that, that’s just too bad.  Let us say that they succeed in recreating a world in their image.  What kind of a world is that?  Is that the mad existence that defines humanity? Are we really no better than dung beetles fighting over a bit of feces?

But there is something greater in each of us: our sense of altruism and self-sacrifice.  We make the choice minute by minute, second by second, to define who and what we are. We do it because we see the spirit of God in each of us.  This is what the great spiritual leaders such as Jesus recognized: we carry God—whatever we ultimately conceive of God to be—within our hearts and spirits.  When we look at each other pass politics, fear, and stereotyping, we see the face of God looking back.

God is not going to come down from the skies, wave His/Her/Its/? “arms” and save us from the virus.  It didn’t happen during the Black Plague, it didn’t happen during the Spanish Flu, and it won’t happen now.  We will.  Together.  Not pointing fingers at each other searching for who to blame.  But together working to stop this, recognizing that each life is valuable and equally worthy of being lived.

[1] Just to be clear.  I am not negating the fear and worry about the loss of income that so many are experiencing.  This unprecedented destruction of our economies and the suffering of so many says more about the flimsy nature and evils of an economic system that ultimately treats people as means to an end, rather than an end in themselves.  Perhaps after this crisis, we will finally begin to realize that this must change.

Is God worthy of worship? Part 2

So, after much struggle, I came to the conclusion that either I had to abandon the idea of God or change my understanding of what God is.  I simply could not accept that God as an entity looking down from somewhere in the sky, watching to catch human beings who failed to measure up to the flimsiest of His standards and condemning them to eternal punishments—whatever they actually were, for was the truth in the Old Testament, the New Testament, the Qur’an,  the Vedas, or some other so-called Word of God?  How could someone who ate milk with meat be worthy of the same punishments as a mass murderer?

And further, where was truth when there are so many different religions claiming to have the absolute one.  Obviously, they can’t all be correct!  So, perhaps none of them are.   Certainly God isn’t going around on social media and telling us which one is actually The Truth!

So I was left with the question:  How do you bring God into the world?

But if you examine the religions, there is usually one simple rule that they have in common : the Golden Rule, “Do to others as you would wish they would do to you.”  Maybe the form is different, but that simple statement is largely there.

So that became the foundation, even though, I admit, I sometimes fail.

But take it a step forward into what seems obvious but is so misinterpreted, I think.  And for simplicity, I’ll use the words of Jesus of Nazareth–for whom I always had a strong fascination even as a Jewish child.

“The kingdom of God is within you'”(Luke 17:21)

Repeat that to yourself a couple of times with an emphasis on those last three words. Let I sink in until you achieve that “a-ha” moment.

We look outside ourselves,  waiting for some supernatural being to come down and put things to right.  Just for example, Christianity has been waiting almost 2,000 years since the death of Christ for Him to return in splendor and initiate that kingdom.  Judaism waits for ha-Mashiach.   Islam,  al-Masih.   And so on, and so on…

We keep waiting, and waiting….Like misbehaved children, waiting for Daddy to come home.

But Daddy isn’t coming.

In a manner of speaking, Daddy is waiting for us.

And we are so sure of the righteousness of our beliefs that we will kill for them, we will oppress our brothers and sisters for them, we will consign them to the deepest parts of whatever Hell we can imagine for not agreeing with us.  We damn those who are different, who do not conform to our way of life.  And we expect a God to bring us his kingdom?

No, hate and self-righteousness only keeps that kingdom further away.  Because it is not for God to bring that kingdom to us, it is for us to bring the kingdom to God.

It starts within us.  With how we treat each other, with how we approach the world—do you expect a kingdom of God to be created out of hate?

It calls for a revolution of the human heart.  So if I wish to see that kingdom come, it has to start with me.  It has to come from what is within me!  I must endeavor to bring God—or better, whatever I can conceive the idea of God to be–into the world from out of my actions, from the way I live my live.  Love can only be brought into the world by being loving.. Compassion by being compassionate.  Trust by being trustworthy.  Understanding by trying to be understanding.  Comfort by being comforting.  Hope by giving hope.

And when that spreads from one human soul to another, and keeps spreading…then you have created the kingdom

Then you bring God into this hurt and cyring world.








Seeing God in the Third Millennium – Oliver Sacks – The Atlantic

How the brain creates out-of-the-body experiences and religious epiphanies

Having myself having had both (an out-of-the-body experience as a child after a massive dose of penicillin), and a religious epiphany while walking on the top of the walls of Jerusalem  in 1990, I found this article by Dr. Sacks very interesting.  Does it preclude a genuine religious experience of God?  Personally, I think the jury is still out.

Seeing God in the Third Millennium – Oliver Sacks – The Atlantic.